I reconnected with Thu again today. She's such an amazing and interesting person, I don't know why she takes her time to hang out with me.... I feel unworthy.... I wonder what she likes about me? I feel like I need to accomplish something significant or be involved with something interesting for her to remain interested in me as a friend..... I don't know.... I'm being too harsh on myself, again.

She gave me a lot of insight on my previous relationship with Alex. She also gave me a lot of insight on my relationship with Adam.  She really likes Adam so far, I'm so so SO HAPPY! I really do value her opinion.

Thu's and Cherry's opinions are the opinions that I value the MOST. I trust their judgement and advice.

Thu also performed a Reiki healing session on me today.  I have to say it was absolutely amazing. I felt amazing afterwards.  My head was very high for awhile and my observations skills had increased for a bit.  I saw Thu in a different light for awhile. A positive light.  I felt tingly magnetic sensations around my head and lower body and leg area while she was channeling positive energies into me.

Thu is SO cool! I REALLY want to get into this. I feel that this is all a sign pointing towards me going on a spiritual journey of finding inner soul and self and Enlightenment........ I've been pointed to this path a couple of times in the past but I've never gone through it.  But now I have two special people encouraging me onto a spiritual journey. Both Adam and Thu.

I feel my stress has dissipated... Not quite sure if it's a placebo effect or not. I don't think so.
I'm still experiencing feel good highs within my head.

Ahhh.... I cannot wait to learn more about Reiki. I want to learn how to perform this channeling of positive energy. I think it will really help Adam if I were to be able to do so.

Also, I'm excited to learn more about cutting the cord.  Will be doing so with my parents and Alex.

My mother needs to let me go and learn to let me make my own choices and learn from my own mistakes (if I ever make any).  She needs to know that she can't always be there to protect me and needs to let me fly out of her nest.  It is time to let go mom......

As for Alex, he needs to learn how to heal himself without my energies helping him out.  He needs to get through this on my own. I can no longer be his emotional crutch.  He needs to learn this.  He will grow out of this.

Today letter from Adam... It had made me cry... I was so touched. I felt so loved. I felt so special.
Adam makes me feel so good about myself. He makes me feel great mentally and physically.
I take all of his compliments to heart.

I have many people compliment me but I never really hear them or take them into much consideration or heart.  I feel as if they don't genuinely mean it and are only saying it just because they can.

I am usually a very skeptical person, especially when it comes to people telling me good and nice things about me.  But I take all of Adam's words to heart. I believe that he genuinely means everything he says.

Also, I feel the title "boyfriend" for you is offensive and very underrated.
You are more to me than a boyfriend. You are a significant other. A very significant other of mine.
When I hear the title of boyfriend, I think of a toy, a person to mess around with, with no future intentions.
You are MORE to that for me.

I see you as someone significant in my future, whatever position it may be. I want you in it and I see you in it.

We'll help each other grow.

Adam Ta
I Love You Sweetest, Dearest of Mine

You Beautiful Soul