Steffi and Cherry had a party last night over at Steffi's house. I knocked the fuck out from 6pm - 10pm. Wasn't feel good, felt like puking because I puked in the morning and all. But I woke up alright, slight headache. Ate an apple and felt a SHIT ton better. THANK YOU GREEN APPLE.

Realized that it's okay to invite people that don't know other people at the party. I invited James Bond because I felt like we needed more people.  Was afraid that he wouldn't get along with people because they wouldn't know each other. Lots of respect for him and his friends for just going around and talking to people.   Not making shit awkward.  I want to be like that. Just go to a party where I don't know anybody and start talking to them.

I hate how towards most of peers, I have to wear makeup for them to notice me or want to talk to me (boys, mostly). I fucking refuse to do that shit though. If you don't want to approach me or think I'm attractive without makeup then, FUUUUUCK you! I don't want to associate with you bitches!

Anyway, I was the only person sober (except for steven and ngoc) who was sober. EEEK! I'm super proud of them.  I probably would have more fun if I drank, but NO! I refuse to do so!!!! I will get used to parties sober, and THEN I will socially drink occasionally or whatever.  I don't want to be reliant on alcohol to have fun. FUCK NO!!!

I need to go to more parties....... Sober.  Just so I can put myself in more awkward situations. So I will learn how to easily handle these types of situations in the future.  YEEEAH!! TRAINING!!!!