CamCam called me again! Iono.... I am somewhat suspicious of his motives!
He told me that I was mind blowing and an amazing person when I asked what he thought of me as a person.
He said I was selfless, amazing, wonderful person!  I want to ask him what made him think I was a selfless person. I will save that for when I see him in real life next weekend!

He's a total cutie though.... Says that at the moment he really wants to cuddle with me...
Aww man what the hell....... ;__; That makes my heart skip a beat...... I want to cuddle with him too.....

I'm not quite sure why he's all of a sudden pursuing me.... I suspicious....... But yesh, must think in the present, "be here now, be here now, be here now".

Okay seriously though, I feel really fucking bad right now....  I had 3 guys on my plate... And if Cammy is added it will be 4...... Adam, Simon, Ivan........ What the heck!!! They are all really good people. But so far Adam is #1 because I know that he loves me and knows me the most! I also love him and know him the most!

But le sigh.... I'm not into committed relationships or anything of that sort at the moment... I want some time to explore and see what kind of guys out there. To be honest being in that 3 year relationship with Alex fucking scarred me for life... Knowing that I missed out on so many opportunities.. I don't want to feel that way again.... Want to feel completely free at the moment....... Because I know that once I get into a relationship I am strictly monogamous.... No joke!! And I'm not even forcing myself either, I just....get into that mode.

I don't want to break any hearts.... What to do... What to do... I am a fucking horn dog though and I am severely lacking affection............. So I feel like I'm going to pounce on the guy the gets physically closest to me.... If Adam was out of jail it would definitely be with him.... But at the same time, I don't want to ruin the relationship that we have at the moment....!! It's good the way it is!!

Gosh, when Simon was dancing with me...... I got really aroused..... He definitely knows how to touch.... He didn't touch my private no no areas, just my thighs and stomach and we were holding hands at short points in the night! Eeeeeeh... Wanna do it again but to music that we can actually properly dance/grind to.  I feel that we were both nervous and went a bit too fast and didn't go very well to the music. Fucking dumb........ Perhaps I shall invite him to Cantina tomorrow? Iono.

Gosh damn it Dan Tam. Why the fuck do you have so many guys at the moment...... @_@ You never asked for this or want any of this.... But I guess I have to make do with it and see how things go with them...

Oh my goodness... I feel like I really need to go and see Ritha and see how things are... That's $25 right there.. It's okay............ I just got my check.... It will be a good investment I think.

Kinda sad and mad that Thu won't fucking hit me up when she's free to hang out with me. She's not making the effort, I'm the only one initiating.... But I guess she's the type where people have to initiate to hang out with her nowadays.....

Whatevers, I'm just living life, trying to be a good girl. Need to do TWICE the work on my spreadsheet for tomorrow because I didn't get around to doing it today. I'm a BAD GIRL!!!

I would also like to be thankful and grateful for this life of mine..... I am so grateful and feel very lucky to be so fortunate.... With every aspect of life....