Wise words from a stranger.

*guy sees me texting during ajapai*
"Live in the present! Fuck your friend's problem!!"

I'm trying really hard to live in the present. Is it okay to live in the present AND have responsibilities at the same time?

I went all the way up to Hollywood by myself yesterday to attend LA BEATDOWN to see Ajapai.
I was really nervous and intimidated at first, but I ended up making friends with these 2 awesome people!
Tifa and Angel! Oh my god. TIFA WAS SO ADORABLE!!!! I love how fucking feisty she is!!!!
She's able to pull off the short boy cut! She makes it looks SUPER cute!

Anyway, met up with Justin, wasn't feeling it at all. I see him more of as a father figure (in a weird way).
I can tell he wanted to dance with me, put his hand on my waist and was tapping his fingers to the music, but I turned around and told him no.  He would stand behind me and made sure none of the moshers ricocheted in my direction by pushing them away before they came over to me.

I'm really lucky, I always somehow find people at events that help me out! I'm really grateful for all of them for watching out for me and everything. :)

Mama saw me coming home at around 2:30 last night (technically morning)...
And didn't say anything. I think she has come to terms that I can be responsible for myself, or at least she's not as uptight.

I will come home and cao gio her tonight.

DO IT TAM. YOU BETTER DO IT.

Ivan inspires me to be more family oriented. Same as Adam.
I think this might be some kind of sign...............

Anyway, I'm trying my hardest to live in the present.

I LOVE LIFE!

P.S: Sad that he hasn't texted me yet......... I just hope he doesn't drop me out of nowhere.  That would really hurt me.  He's probably busy hanging out and spending time with his family! So I'm happy with that. He has his priorities straight. That's really attractive!

Failed house of blues mission at downtown Disney. Crashed at Cammy's house with all the rest of the gals.
Late night visits to central park at 2AM and running through sprinklers. Late night walks back to the mama's pad in the empty streets with Cam. Good talks about parenting and living life. Source Code movie was a total fail. Everyone knocks the fuck out. Also, failed hooks.  Impressions of Family Guy after wards. Learned a lesson about sleeping over. Waking at 5AM.  Mama's hella mad, probably thought I was somewhere far away. Which I wasn't. I was in HB the whole time.  Was just too tired to drive home, didn't want to die driving home.  Wanted to sleepover. Was it a bad move? Nah, I learned a lesson from it though. Learned something important about myself and people and certain situations.

Going to the beach at 1AM and pulling COD shit, hiding from the beach patrol by laying in the sand and rolling the fuck around it with Nathan as our commander in chief.

Sneaking into Hy4TT jacuzzis at 2AM and actually SWIMMING in our underwear after merge........
WOW. TOO DOWN.

So happy that Nathan and Cherry are super down people. I wouldn't have done it without them.
Oh god, I would be way too fucking scared and pussy to do so.

What an interesting night....... And I was completely sober! YEEEEEAHHHHHH!!!!!!

Now I'm hungry as fuck. Going to wake up early and eat cereal and fucking bounce it to west court for Adam's appearance.

EEEEE!! CAN'T BELIEVE N8 DAWGY IS BACK DOWN!!!!
I WAS FUCKING SQUEALING ALL DAY.

Cherry inspires me to have more sex appeal!

I will have the sex appeal to initially lure people in....... and then BAM, they get hit with my normal not so sex appealing side.

They have the choice to either take it or leave it!

I don't give a fuuuuuck. It's their loss if they choose to leave an awesome individual like me! ;)

July 03, 2011; 3:38PM


IS: So I kind of miss you
DT: Kind of? Le gasp! ;) I will be seeing you soon, this week yes?
IS: Sure thing
IS: Your le gasp made me laugh

I started freaking the fuck out when I got this text from him!
I remember one of my texts nearing the end saying, "Danni enjoys Ivan's company very much. But is afraid of telling him that she misses him too." Which he replied back with, "Don't be scared :)"

Man, Ivan is the sweetest and most gentlemanly guy I've met thus far!  I also realize yesterday that he's the only one so far that I have respected so much as to not to view in any kind of objectifying way.

Most guys that I have seen, all I do is objectify them.  Women objectifying men is usually unheard in normal conversation but that shit happens. Women use men for sex too.  And it's sad. But that's life, I guess.

But, I DON'T WANT TO GO "WITH" LIFE (HOW THINGS ARE), ALL THE TIME.
FUCK THE WAY THINGS ARE!! I WANT TO GO MY OWN WAY!!!

I will just "go with life" for awhile and then slowly make an impression and start my own path, people can choose to follow it if they'd like! I don't give a fuuuuck!

It's sad how I have to put up a front that I'm somewhat normal to lure people into getting to know me.

Eh, whatevez. I guess I just gotta lure them in with the notion that I'm at least somewhat normal, and then full on blast them with who I really am the next time I'm with them.

Wearing makeup to social gatherings....... I feel that it's kinda fake putting up the front that I look a certain way, when I really don't, naturally. MEH. WHATEVER. I will start with makeup and transition slowly from there.

Gotta boost my confidence levels a couple notches up, yee yeeeee!

Steffi and Cherry had a party last night over at Steffi's house. I knocked the fuck out from 6pm - 10pm. Wasn't feel good, felt like puking because I puked in the morning and all. But I woke up alright, slight headache. Ate an apple and felt a SHIT ton better. THANK YOU GREEN APPLE.

Realized that it's okay to invite people that don't know other people at the party. I invited James Bond because I felt like we needed more people.  Was afraid that he wouldn't get along with people because they wouldn't know each other. Lots of respect for him and his friends for just going around and talking to people.   Not making shit awkward.  I want to be like that. Just go to a party where I don't know anybody and start talking to them.

I hate how towards most of peers, I have to wear makeup for them to notice me or want to talk to me (boys, mostly). I fucking refuse to do that shit though. If you don't want to approach me or think I'm attractive without makeup then, FUUUUUCK you! I don't want to associate with you bitches!

Anyway, I was the only person sober (except for steven and ngoc) who was sober. EEEK! I'm super proud of them.  I probably would have more fun if I drank, but NO! I refuse to do so!!!! I will get used to parties sober, and THEN I will socially drink occasionally or whatever.  I don't want to be reliant on alcohol to have fun. FUCK NO!!!

I need to go to more parties....... Sober.  Just so I can put myself in more awkward situations. So I will learn how to easily handle these types of situations in the future.  YEEEAH!! TRAINING!!!!