18 units this semester....... I'm extremely intimidated!! The most units I had ever taken was 14 units. This is a big jump... But I KNOW I can do it if I put my mind to it!!! Dan Tam. YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT!! I just need to put my mental into that mindset.

After talking to Lan tonight, I feel SO inspired by her motivation and dedication for her extracurricular activities. Going BEYOND the minimum. Exactly what Ira tells me to do!!! I really need to get into that mindset... I REALLY NEED TO!!! WHAT AM I DOING!?

I need to start training myself starting TODAY. I have.... 3 days to prove to myself that I can work hard.

I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET NEW AND INTERESTING PEOPLE!!! I am determined to meet and become really good friends with at least 1 AMBITIOUS, INSPIRING and SUPER INTERESTING individual this semester.

I went flatlining this morning with Trevor over at Lake Park.  So fucking difficult, I need to go on handicap mode (hold onto trevor's shoulders) to get onto the actual rope. The longest I can balance on it is probably around 5 seconds and the most steps I can take was  BARELY 2, 1 to be completely honest. It's pretty fucking mindblowing once I actually realized that I was STANDING on a fucking thin ass rope. It trips me out! But it's super cool! I'm really glad Trevor convinced me to go flatlining with him! He even gave me a a bundle of bananas. Ahahahahaha....... Kewl shit, kewl shit! Need to strap down tonight and do some reading. I have been SUPER unproductive this week.

He's a really cool friend to have around, he calls me out on all my bullshit excuses and everything. I feel like I'm going to learn a lot from him!  He's a total sage. I also learn a shit ton whenever I listen to him talk! Definitely one of the coolest peoples I know!

Spontaneously took Kenny out to eat Pho today.
HAHAHAHA, I can't believe I actually did it.

I told myself a month ago that I would take his cute ass to Pho one day.
And wow, I was kind of giving up at first. But after his status of "will wash car for Pho", I thought I slightly got it. And then now, after I decided to post on his wall, "Am I allowed to objectify you", the convo ends in me taking him out to pho.

HAHAHA he was probably caught by complete surprise once he found out I was completely serious.

Now for him to wash my car later on today......... Or Monday.........

He's actually a very sweet and smart guy! Despite his aesthetic and demeanor, he's really fucking chill! And hilarious as FUCK!! AHAHHA

"Stop being a fuckin' alien!!!"

Never thought I'd actually do this............... DAMN. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

CONFIDENCE BOOST 100+

I want a picture with him.

I feel like such a shallow bitch...... It disgusts me.

Nobody wants to be alone.
The heart beats happy when it has a place.
And if it doesn't have a home
It can come into my space.

So you can be the one I love.
I can be the one you long for.
You can be the one I want... want.
And you can be the one I love.
This could be our world wide open.
You can be the one I want... want.

When you've fallen for someone
But that someone doesn't feel the same.
But before you come undone
You can call out my name.

So you can be the one I love.
I can be the one you long for.
You can be the one I want... want.
And you can be the one I love.
This could be our world wide open.
You can be the one I want... want.

(So you can be the one... one one one
I can be the one... one one one
So you can be the one... one one one
I can be the one... one one one)

So you can be the one I love.
I can be the one you long for.
You can be the one I want... want.
And you can be the one I love.
This could be our world wide open.
You can be the one I want... want.

Audiotistic was a blast last night. Simon is a really cool guy. I really don't want to hurt him.
I also find it really strange how eerily parallel our lives/personalities are.

Anyway, I don't know, not to think too much into the future, but I kind of have a feeling that I'd drop every guy for Adam..... I don't know... We'll see.

On a lighter note, I think I should invest in a Disneyland pass. 
I would use Disneyland as a place to escape and hide in whenever I'm feeling anti-social.

I've been feeling really unproductive these past 3 days... Need to work on the Spreadsheet.
Need to set some time out to ride. I don't want to be hanging out with friends everyday.
I also get really fucking irritated whenever I tell my friends I'm not able to hang out and then they'd freak out on me and get mad or complain. I hate having to stop my momentum.  It's so hard to get it rolling, but once it's rolling, it's all smoothness from there.

Learning another foreign languages is a skill that I can hone by myself that can get me to places really easily.
Imagine myself... Fluent in 6 languages and putting that down on my resume...
I KNOW that I have the ability to do so, I just need to learn how to FOCUS and FOLLOW THROUGH.
I'm going to try really hard to focus on Mandarin....  Cherry's friend from Humboldt, Matthew is an inspiration! Fluent Mandarin in 6 MONTHS. Wow. That is pure inspiration and motivation right there.


Languages to Learn:
- Chinese (Mandarin) ****
- Arabic
- Spanish
- Korean
- Latin

What to do by the end of this summer:
- Apply for organizations that Ira recommended
- Volunteer
- Read "Irony of Democracy"
- Re-read certain chapters from Poli Sci textbook
- Practice my Chinese